blogger is having some weird problems now oh well i don care...
anyway today was finally the end of my last paper and now it is holis for me wee~
But i did'nt know how to do micro A at all !! sadded
after sch went to watch movie with amanda,yvone, sheng yang , jun an and hexiang to watch 'year 1' the movie was super funny but it ended really late by the time i reached home was alr 11.30pm alr...TIRED!
but it was fun..
some how i think my face seem dull bahx amanda keep asking me to smile aNd wat ia wrong but here was nth wrong i was jus day dreaming and think about nth guess i jus don have much to say bahx...cos now i realise all my conversation is all about yamapi!!! OMG!!!!bitting finger nails..wakakaka!!

and i miss my lappy it's been so long since i last touch you my dear lovely lappy !!!~ and my pet in pet society i dying soon le...gtg earn pet society money le bb..

oh ya tmr gg to club to celebrate wanzi bday..but i so don have the mood to go club my face is rotting i have been rejecting the idea of gg there since 2 weeks ago when wanzi first tell me!!!! and tmr is the day alr hais!!! save me

Finally!!
Elective exam is over and it was pretty easy!!! HAPPY!
Anyway after elective exam we had to go for SGH field trip and tt guy who bring us around is totally making every1 pissed off...ARGH!!!!
after the field trip i was totally drain out of energy and i mean TOTALLY!!
was so tired i wanted to fall asleep on the floor.
Actually wanted to take a nap on the bus but there is this 3 guys they were so god damn loud can!! As if their grandfather own the SBS bus company!!
And man! They are really talkative i manage to fall asleep despite the noise and when i wake up they were still talking loudly, REALLY AUNTY can! AGRH!!
I was so angry my mood sank so i decided to go for retail therapy before gg home..hahahax
I rmb tt there was a sale gg on at hougang mall and I spent every cent tt I had..I
bought 4 shoes and a bag and I’m feeling super HIGH now!!! WEE~~~

Shopping is still the best cure even a gd meal can’t compare!!!

still not able to slp!...not becos i can't fall asleep, not becos i don wanna slp but i have work to do!
it so diffcult this days..i can't fight the feeling of rejection inside anymore.. it's getting stronger by the min! i cannot take it!! i know tt i'm running with no directions cos i realise i hate this course tt i'm studying yet i donno wat i wanna do other then this!!! i donno i'm just so clueless..

and i can no longer fake that everything is aright, everything is intact!
i can see,feel, know that everything is falling apart..
i have no1 to tell cos nobody understands and i don feel like talking to ppl that don understand!
it's Pain-stricken to make a person that is ignorant of how you feel understand your pain! no point! no use!
the reply i'm gg to get is only gg to make me feel more helpless!!
pls nobody is to type Jiayou things will be better cos it won't and its still not!!! i ratter you not do this kind of stupid thing!!! its not gg to help in any way!

It so Agonising to see all my friend work hard and suffering but doing the things tt they like, pursuing their dream! yet i cannot see myself infuture doing wat i'm studying this really makes it hard for me to strive in my studies!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pls pls pls i really feel like crying i cannot fight this feeling anymore. its killing me i feel lik dying!!!!!! i cannot take this anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Havent done any tutorials yet,havent study yet, don feel like doing lab report!
DON feel lik going for lab tmr.
havent pratice my cs presentation yet!
so freaking tired!!!
really really tired soul, body and mind!
don have timE for all my preCIOUs..

ytd made me realise so many things
i really do treasure you all!
see maisy cry in pain ytd made me so sad,
see shanny cry ytd i feel so unhappy..
see pris cry for maisy really really hurts my heart!
it was suppose to be happy ytd but we all end up crying=(
sry kaiwei messed up ur bday but i'm glad you say you had fun..
BUT ALL IN ALL EVERYTHING IS ALL FINE NOW!
we all when throught so much tgt no matter wat we will alway stick tgt kayyx maisy don worry nobody is gg to sever ties with anybody!
we will all stick tgt..

we are all so busy i really hate life after sec sch we don have time for each other!
is not tt i immature tt's why i hate poly life is jus tt i feel i really had a lot to lose tt's why i hate..
but i do accept poly life and all the stuff,
but nobdoy understands this feeling inside this feel that makes me unable to be truly happy.
and i really feel explaining to others is so tiring.


but lucky poly is not all tt bad..and i also know every1 has their own problems,nobody is stress free,nobody i relaxed,nobody is care free and nobody is truly happy all the time..
and i truly hate when ppl say tt this is jus all part of growing up
and that we need to move on cos all these i alr know..
but precious we are lucky cos you know we are not alone,we can depend on each other when we feel helpless kayyx!

i don't understand! i don't understand ! i don't understand!
KAIWEI sry about your bday!